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My True Feelings (Maybe)
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Ossu. AFA day 1 zoomed past so quickly!! Basically, me, ah gua1, 2 and 3 were damn pissed off. Here is the nice, long story =.=" We wanted to line up to buy tickets, but 'K' told us that he was helping us buy, so we gave our money to him. After awhile, tyki SMS-ed and I decided to help him buy also, but since I couldn't find K I gave the money to T. After 20mins, K returned and told us that he 'bought his own ticket' and 'had no more money to spare'. I mean, what the fuck?! Where did the other money go? Later on then he say it was due to 'buying the wrong ticket'. How wrong can that be? Even if he bought wrong ticket he would have enough to return at least half the money, yeah? I decided to ask T to help me buy, but... T also returned, with EVERY SINGLE TICKET INTACT, even tyki's ticket. I knew I should have asked T to help me buy! In the end I cut queue and help buy tickets =.=" I will never trust K again man. We were damm pissed, so we went to the 6th floor to cool our heads =.=" After we had done so we went back down. We went to take pics, play and finally went into hall 404 (?), the resting spot for cosplayers. BUBUBABA was there <3 Anyway. We danced hare hare yukai, cirno, kerro destiny, love and joy, caramel dansen, etc. Without K of course. Slacked, threw Squalo around the place. Chased after a 'zombie', the interviewer, who is Elaxias' friend, and played with tyki. Hmm. Is that all?! I intend to sing for tomorrow lol. I will have to get my own lyrics since the karoake doesn't supply romaji lyrics. On Saturday, 13 November 2010 at 20:26 I really hate this life. Why is it that my parents and grand mother are such sexists? They expect me to be at their beck and call, like a little dog. When I go teenage, I have to beg my parents. When I go cosfest, I was forced to go with my brother. When I go friends’ house, beg. When I go china town, beg. Go city hall, beg. Buy jumpsuit, beg. Cosplay, beg. WTF. WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTHING I DO, I HAVE TO BEG?! I REALLY REALLY HATE MY PARENTS. Now I can’t even go for a simple sleepover? WHY?! WHERE’S THE REASON?! When I asked why I can’t go but my brother could go, my grandmother replied scathingly, “ BECAUSE YOU ARE A GIRL! “ WHAT?! BECAUSE I AM A GIRL, I CAN’T SLEEPOVER AT PEOPLES’ HOUSE? WHERE IS THE LOGIC? HUH?! YOU TELL ME THAT, BITCH. Today I accidentally missed my tuition. I didn’t even look at the date today la, pls. I didn’t know until the teacher called la! Nabei, still blame me? Today I go work, but parents think I go friend house play? YOU Then you guys so annoying? HOW DARE YOU CHANGE MY TUITION DATE TO SATURDAY WHEN I HAVE AFA?! YOU EVEN IGNORED WHAT I HAD TO SAY?! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH COURAGE IT TAKES FOR ME TO SAY OUT WHAT I FEEL? AFA IS THE BIGGEST EVENT IN MY CURRENT 14 YEARS. YOU KNOW HOW I HAVE BEEING LIVING SINCE SEC1?! YOU ALWAYS TELL ME TO GO HOME EARLY. I DO, OKAY. That is, I USED TO. I DIDN’T HAVE A LIFE BACK THEN; I WAS LIVING FOR YOU! The moment school ended I immediately rushed home, you know?! NOW THAT I FINALLY FOUND SOMETHING THAT I CAN LIVE FOR, YOU TRY TO BREAK IT?! WHY WON’T YOU UNDERSTAND??!! I’ll tell ya something. You guys don’t mean a single shit to me now =.=” Since when have you ever shown any care for me? Have you ever hugged me or said you loved me when I was a child?! NO! I DON’T HAVE A SINGLE MEMORY OF YOU GIVING ME ANY AFFECTION, AND NOW AFTER NEARLY 10YEARS YOU TRY TO MAKE IT UP TO ME BY SAYING “I am doing this cuz’ I love you”?! Like hell I will believe you! From now on, I’m going to stand up for myself. The moment I become of age and complete my O’s, I’m going to ignore your silly comments. I’M GOING TO DO WHAT I WANT AND NO ONE IS GONNA STOP ME. Cosplay, going out, whatever. Don’t YOU come into my life and mess it up anymore! Right now you’re just a stepping stone to my independence day. And I’m really pissed off at my bro, too. When my parents wanted to force me to go for tuition on sat, my bro actually stood on my parents’ side! I thought that because our ages were so similar; he would step up and help me a little. BUT NO, HE DIDN’T. HE’S JUST ANOTHER LAPDOG TO MY PARENTS, I KNOW IT. I’m never going to trust him EVER AGAIN. I wanna get out of this hell hole, quick. Make me grow up as fast as possible… On Thursday, 11 November 2010 at 22:43 Hello. Went to Teenage Big Day Out today. Not that fun =.=" At suntec city. Haiz. Raw human emotions running high today~ I don't understand humans. Oh well~ LOL when we are in a pinch we can rely on tsunayoshi-kun! Etto. Spent half the time emo-ing in one corner. Tyki cheered me up by giving me a gift though. I shall keep this gift until I go into my grave! Umm. Wanted to dance outside the convention hall, but some muthu guy come and disiao us. I very dulan!!! But wenhui come to the rescue!!! After that we don't care liao, continue dancing, BUT JUN KHIT GO INDIRECTLY DROP MY PHONE!! I angry, so I shouted ... Alot. "OH MY FUCKING MOTHER CB ************* NOOOOOOOOO!!! " While the entire population of humans stared at me. I was not ps though. I chased jun khit all the way into the toilet ^^ Bwahaha. Okay. Oh ya. Ah gua. I will forget everything tonight. =.=" Ahh well. Humans will always be humans. Selfish, corrupt, emotional, evil. Are these not the cores of a human existance? Okay, no idea what I'm writing now. Still, I am also human, so basically I am the same, I suppose. Seriously, I don't have an idea on what is my goal in life. I'm living life because I'm alive. Thats the main reason. Yet other humans are so different. They laugh, make merry, and a few years/months they fall out. Seriously. Humans are weird. I should try new things and see what are the reactions... AH. EVERYTHING I SAY MAKES NO SENSE IN REALITY, BUT MY MIND UNDERSTANDS EVERYTHING. WHY IS THAT?!! Humans can be quite amusing though. I saw a few humans wrapping their fellow friends in cloth like a mummy. Bwahaha. On Sunday, 7 November 2010 at 20:50 Ossu, minna~ Today wen hui and jia xin come to my house to do ah jum~ For the Teenage Big Day Out tomorrow. Hmm. See if I can go luh. If can I saikang!! Quite looking forward to it. Wonder what I shall wear tomorrow? Hurhur. Just now I ganged up on my mom with wen hui and jia xin to ask permission to stay with my ah gua for AFA... Hope she will say yes!! She said gotta ask my daddy though =.=" I have a feeling he'll say no lol. Ahh well. Important things coming up: Dunearnite, AFA, Teenage ( Tomorrow ), SYF ( Next Year ) Class Outing, Buying of Shinigami costume~ Gotta remember to give ah gua her wiggie. Yosh! Oh, by the way, yesterday when I went to chinatown, I saw jun khit. And the person accompanying me to PITB was one hell of an irritant. =.=" I got squashed by millions of people and cheena people on the train =.=" Oh well. Bye biii~ On Saturday, 6 November 2010 at 19:05 Fie, pooh, pah. Lol. I don't get what goes in the heads of humans. Whats wrong with them lol. I need to get a few books on human characters =.=" at 14:50 OSSU! 200th post eh?~ Etto... Today I was supposed to go to cheryl's house to record my singing for the Anisong competition. If my singing is good, I will join~ Still, I don't think I will get chosen, cuz there's a choir girl singing the same song as me... T.T Black Rock Shooter is the only song I can probably memorize at the moment lol. Still, I have some hopes! Cheryl yesterday suddenly need go malaysia today, so I will be helping her buy her wig. Bringing my classmate to PITB to buy his stuff =.=" He's been bothering me for DAYS. Wth. Its getting kind of... Annoying already. Going to cosasia later to slack~~ HOHO. See ya peeps~ On Friday, 5 November 2010 at 08:21 NYAAAA! I'm bored. So gonna post about my ah gua. No.1) TI AMO. No.2) TI AMO. No.3) ANYONE WHO GO MAKE MY AH GUA SAD, I WILL FUCK THEM ALL! Lastly, TI AMOOOOOOO!! On Wednesday, 3 November 2010 at 21:30 HEY! MY AH GUA! TI AMO! AISHITERU! WO AI NI! ~ at 21:21 Hi... Had band today :O Found out that we weren't having band camp anymore. Seriously pissed off. I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO IT YOU KNOW!! I really want to write a petition. =.=" Furthermore we won't be having any dec band prac until 30 dec. What the hell!!! Fuck it all la nabei ccb. Then the school expects us to do well in SYF? My ass! Stupid teachers la! Nabei. at 15:31 LOL yesterday I went for bowling and badminton with the 2topaz guys... Why are they 'unleashing their potentials'???? LOL They play like some siao ta bor. Awesome people =.=" Bowling: WTF ALOT OF POWER. Haha. Bored. Intend to join the Anisong competiton, but deciding on what song I should sing. On Tuesday, 2 November 2010 at 15:32 |
About me
Um. Name: Gracelin Neko Butler Age: 14+ CCA: Military Band I LOVE FLUTES VERY MUCH! X3 I also love anime and cosplay! I ALSO LOVE MY SCHOOL! Etto, the girl from school deserves a smacking |
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Hibari Rokudo Tsuna Colonello Kyoko Yamamoto Gokudera Reborn Haru Ryohei Chrome Lambo I-Pin Lal Viper Squalo Skull Xanxus Ciel Phanthomhive Sebastian Michaelis |
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